Author: ebraidic

Days 91 through 94

by ebraidic

It s all shit. I have basically wasted these last 9 days going up and down 3lbs. I am so frustrated with myself. I am not even putting in my “all”. WHY? Do I not want this? well, I know thats not true. Is it willpower? Something is keeping me from succeeding (hint: me). In three months (basically), I can do a lot! My plan in the past had been: 2x day elliptical 30-45 min each; eat around 1200 cal day. That was it. It wasn’t complicated. It STILL isn’t complicated. I am just complicating it. I am annoying the shit out of myself. I need to get this under control. I am going to set a VERY CLEAR GOAL.

Lose 60lbs in 100 days. From today. 3/6/21 That is a little over 4lbs lost a week. Is that possible? I think so. I have the opportunity to do this from home and not have to run into work everyday and expose my “mistakes” and sad state. It is a perfect time for that. 100 days from today is June 14th. We return to work that day supposedly. I say that because the return day has been pushed back literally 6 times since we’ve been home starting last March (’20). Four pounds a week. I can do this. I have to want it. I have to have a plan. I have to put my mind to it. I got this.

Day 100 – 2/23/2021

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202.0

Question to ask myself before eating: is this helping me move towards my goal? Or away from my goal? It’s one or the other.

The thing I like about my weight right now? Well, practically nothing but – THERE IS SO MUCH POTENTIAL! Seeing the silver linings will help me here. Keeping my focus on the positive… realistic positive… will get me moving towards my goal.

Each day on my 100 day calendar, I record my weight (incognito so my husband doesn’t know the real number, as if I’m fooling anyone?) and the number of calories I burned that day from exercise.

Day 99 – 2/24/2021

by ebraidic

197.2
I don’t want to get too excited. Its probably just water weight. but I will take the weight loss with a smile. I literally weight right after peeing my brains out and working out. I didn’t drink a thing until after I weighed. So I’ve done this 100 day calendar before – 7 years ago. Prior to pre-menopause hot flashes and weight gain and sleepless nights and all the great things that come along with this beautiful time in your life (LOL, Not!).